Had an incredibly fabulous night last night… got a chance to relax with a wonderful family, as well and think about some things; like what the fuck is it that I’m doing with my life , as apposed to what i Could be doing…
shit…as always though…
that’s basically been one of my main concerns/thoughts ever since I first decided to reach freedom in life(now how long ago was dat? hahaha everSINCEE i can rememba)….and this certain concern of mine is what has gotten me to where I am. but I recognize now that it’s not ever time to stop thinking about those things, it’s not to be set on pause for a moment.. cuz thats when shit fucks up.
i got manners, i got limit. I don’t plan on selfishly abusing nor do i plan on Explaining my ways to those who are simply passing judgement.
Them folk…, i tell you
I’m done with motherfuckers that don’t understand me, pretend to care OR understand, and straight up just fucking anger me with their ways..
So kids, when judged - mentally/verbally/emotionally abused, think about this :
WHERE the fuck are those people? Them greedy, judgmental bastards?
(and it’s a whoooole nother topic if they judgin you right- if you just a dumb ignorant stuck in childhood mothafucka who needs to get their act straight…but dude thats not the case im exploring..lol)
So yeah.. the folks that are judging you and making you feel all bad bout urself- where the fuck are THEY? is THEIR life sooo much fucking better that you allow yourself to see that shit as truth?
Fucking truth is that most fucking likely they are NO Where near the Vibes You’re Trying to Reach. Therefore - no respect shared? no respect given.
So man, why do we so often find ourselves fucking sitting there and diggin our own souls out in fucking anger with these people…? Why do we gotta do that to ourselves…..Whatever happened to some jus ol’ sko positive escapism. Listen to some fresh music, fucking get your ass up and workout, fucking take a hike, fucking smoke some weed and fucking get creative….fucking do what it is you like - and quit hating on those who don’t get it. All you get from that shit is self induced pain. Nigga you tryna handicap yourself for good or what?
besides the point….
Last night I had a goooooooooooood fucking time…good enough to peacefully come to certain realizations… Some people man, [likethemofukasthatwerewithme] - just have no understanding, no limit, and no real respect. They are just trying to reach their selfish desires and do it all for the looks…They’re the types to push you even further in the ground when they see you’ve fallen, rather than giving a helping hand.
Fuck doing things to look good. Ima be as honest and truthful with myself as I wanna be.. and shiet, at the end of the day I feel best knowing that the people I’m surrounded by are full of love, live in reality, and most fucking importantly have their main concern in life as to Live it Up - not you ”making them look bad” infront of whoever. WHATFUCKINGEVER. not worthy of the attention - even if it’s negative. shit, especially if its negative.
and since i’m at it - SHOUTOUT TO ALL THE REAL HOMIES OUT THERE. Whether you’re a true friend to me [love y’alls] or a good & real homeskillet to someone out there. You are so appreciated. Real friends brighten your days; so keep the good vibes comin…